A Heart Full of Love.

You miss the things I haven’t done,
the goals not scored, or races won.
The steps my feet have never walked,
the words my lips have never talked.
In my wide eyes you know my fear.
You take my hand and hold me near.
In children, all around you see, the child that I may never be.
Not so able, tough or agile, often tired and much more fragile.
You see the tears I’ve often cried, and cried them with me, side by side.
Your heart is heavy for my trials, but you wear it well,
with weathered smiles.
I know that you know, I am enough.
But I know the bad days can be tough.
You thank the world for giving me to you,
but you’re sad for all I cannot do,
and not because you feel let down my me,
but you can’t help wonder how I’d be.
If I could do what others do,
like ride a bike or run to you.
You think of all the things I’ll miss
first dance, first love,
first date, first kiss.
Yet here I am, as I should be,
not missing out on being me.
Do not fret or worry so
and make your spirit tired with woe.
And when those nights are feeling longer,
lean on me until you’re stronger.
Hold my little hand in yours,
peacefully we’ll pass the hours.
For all we have is one another,
special child and care worn mother.
Nothing matters more you see,
than seeing all the life in me.
I don’t need to be able to,
do the things that others do.
See the words I do not say,
in the smiles I give you everyday.
When I’m tired let me rest,
with my little head against your chest
and for that moment in that peace,
let your loving worries cease.
Look at what I can achieve,
and celebrate me, do not grieve.
Please do not be sad because,
I’m not the child I never was.
Different isn’t less you know,
and you’re the one who told me so.
And somedays will be hard to take.
And you’ll feel as though your heart might break.
But we’ll bounce back,
we always do.
Because you’ve got me and I’ve got you ❤️

A Heart Full of Love.

I have carried you, always.

I Have carried you, always.

Before you were conceived, I carried a part of you in my soul. When I met your father, I looked into his eyes and saw the other part of you, and knew you, and prayed that you would come to be.

Before you were born, I carried you in my womb. When you were restless I sang to you and soothed you and told you how I loved you.

When you were born, I carried you in my arms. I kissed you and held you close so that you would know that there is light and warmth and goodness in the world.

Later, I wrapped you in clothes and carried you close to my heart. I held you so that you could hear that my heart beats like yours; that we are the same, you and I.

Now, I carry you still, so that you can look at the world with confidence and joy and know that you belong; so that you can share all of the beauty of the world as an equal to all that live in it.

So know that no matter how weary you become, or what life holds, you can always depend on me for support and comfort.

When you grow older, my darling, know that I will carry you till the end of the world. I will carry you in my heart, for you are always with me.

I will carry you, always.

I have carried you, always.

I Still Would Have Chosen You

If before you were born, I could have gone to heaven and saw all the beautiful souls, I still would have chosen you…

If God had told me, “This soul would one day need extra care and needs,” I still would have chosen you…

If He had told me, “This soul may make your heart bleed,” I still would have chosen you…

If He had told me, “This soul would make you question the depth of your faith,” I still would have chosen you…

If He had told me “This soul would make tears flow from your eyes that could fill a river,” I still would have chosen you…

If He had told me “This soul may one day make you witness overbearing suffering,” I still would have chosen you…

If He had told me, “All that you know to be normal would drastically change,” I still would have chosen you…

Of course, even though I would have chosen you, I know it was God who chose me for you.”

-Terri Banish.

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I Still Would Have Chosen You